Saturday, January 19, 2013

Noah Pozner: a call to action

With this lovely picture of my grandson taken by one of his aunts last April, I will say goodbye for a while to all of you who have been following my blog mostly for my Noah posts. I am not going anywhere (except back home soon) but I have reached a stage where I can't continue sharing. Grieving is truly a journey. A long and painful one. Right now I find I cannot grieve and write.
What I would like to say though is that you are truly amazing. I have drawn great comfort from the support and companionship you have offered to all of us along the way and still do. I know you are on standby to do more and for this, I am deeply grateful. I wish there was a way to thank each and everyone of you personally but at this point it is all I can do to take care of my family. There is simply not enough time or energy in a single day to do much more.
But you are all in my heart and I will read your messages if you feel like writing to me personally from time to time. I can't promise I will write back but if I can, I will.
Meanwhile please keep Noah and all the other victims in your hearts and minds. President Obama said the other day that nine hundred people had died from guns in our country since the Newtown massacre of December 14, 2012. As I write, the tally has come to one thousand and nineteen (click here for updated info).
If there is one thing you can do in Noah's memory for our family today, tomorrow and forever, it is to reflect on these numbers and come up with ways to bring them down. Take your ideas to your elected officials, ask them what their positions are and what they are doing to curb gun violence in your state and in the country. Keep them focused. Make them accountable.
I know that there are no simple solutions and that, at the national level, we need to look for and find measures that stand a chance in a divided Congress. As a family we have put together an initial set of proposals that the Task Force has promised to consider. Other victim families may have done the same. You can do the same.
Whatever our positions on guns, there is one thing we probably all agree on as responsible adults: gun violence must be curbed. Let us all speak up and demand change. If we succeed, however modestly, Noah, his classmates and his teachers will not have died in vain.

97 comments:

  1. à bientôt MC

    I understand completely. Your strength and willingness to share with us all has been inspiring. As I have said to you before, I wish you the gentlest journey down this river of sorrow. "Loss is made endurable by love". MC, we have never met, probably never will but I send you and your family all the love I possibly can, the music from my heart to yours to make your loss more endurable.

    I will keep Noah alive in my heart.

    Bless you,

    Lisa Harper





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  2. MC, I really wish soon God will take all the pain away and leave your hearts filled with peace and love for Noah. Again, I don't know what to write or how to try to comfort you through this message. I wish I knew. I'm so sorry is accurate but far too simple statement. For this reason I understand that you want to spend all the time with your family and not writing to us because it's very painful for you. I personally know that I would not find the strength. I also cannot put to words how your little Noah touched my heart. Last night when I was falling asleep I couldn't help it but I just had to think about him and I fell asleep with a picture of him on my mind. I think of him all the time. He has earned a very special place in my heart and I know that I will never forget him. The one thing I'm sure of is that all the signs you see, there are all from Noah. I'm sure of it. When my great grandmother died or when my friend Peter was killed, we all saw signs. I remember birds dancing just outside the window and wanted to come in but when we tried to open the window they were already gone. Before I got a call from my family saying our beloved great grandmother passed away, my mum open a drawer and a picture of her fell out. Pictures can't just fall out by themselves. I've got many more that convinced me that all the signs are from our loved ones. They never really leave us, we just cannot see them. Noah will always be there.

    I promise you I will always carry him in my heart.

    One more thing, that is by far my favourite photo of him.

    God bless you Noah and your family!

    Greta Bielkova

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  3. What a cute photo! That smile could melt anyone's heart. Well, MC, I understand your need to grieve and go away for a while. I will miss your writing and your photos of dear Noah, but you need to take care of yourself and your loved ones.

    Please know that we will continue to think of you and your family and pray for Noah's soul. He has deeply touched the hearts of so many people, and while I wish we never knew of your family (because of the circumstances), we will continue the advocacy in his name. I wish I could turn back time for you, but I can't. The best we can do is advocate for significant legislative change to prevent future tragedies such as this. We need saner, more humane public policy that protects children.

    I will never forget Noah and the other beautiful children.

    My best to you and your family, MC

    Eileen

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  4. Dear MC,
    I have read and re-read your posts and have found that through your writing I have had a glimpse of what a wonderful boy Noah was. I think you are a strong woman and have a wonderful family. However, even strong people need to be able to take time to grieve and to care for themselves. As I have posted before, I was drawn to Noah because my 8 yr. old son looked so much like Noah at his age. I think of Noah each day and will continue to keep him in my heart. I wish for nothing, but peace, comfort and happiness for you and your family. You are all on a journey and where it takes you will be determined by how you come to terms with this tragedy. For me, reading your posts have allowed me to start to figure out how I can be helpful and get involved in trying to change how our nations views guns, mental health and violence. I am not sure how I will get involved, but I am in the process of figuring it out. Please take care of yourself and your family, and thank you again for being so generous with your thoughts and sharing your memories of Noah with us.

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  5. I send blessings, prayers and healing to you and your family every day. Grieving is a lifetime process. The 5 stages of grief are never in order. I never seem to get to #5 - acceptance.

    There are so many of us that grieve with you and your family. We are here for you and always will be.

    I will continue my personal mission for Noah and his family and will never - ever let anyone forget December 14, 2012. That is my promise to each and every affected by this horrific tragedy.

    Please give everyone a big hug from me and thank you for giving us a personal insight to what an incredible little man Noah was here on earth and continues to be in heaven.

    Warmest regards,
    Francine Patterson
    Stoughton, MA

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  6. I understand you cannot write anymore, but thank you so much for sharing Noah. From the moment I saw his pic I couldn't get him off my mind. I think of him an remember him like I knew him. Again I'm sorry for your loss, but just know you and your families strength is something to be admired. I wish you all luck through this difficult time. I send my love. An I will always remember precious Noah.

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  7. Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful Noah with us. Noah and the other amazing children and adults of Newtown will remain forever in my mind and heart. I will do my part to curb gun violence as you advised. My love and prayers to you and your courageous family.

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  9. Hugs MC. Take care of yourself, bake!

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  10. MC, thank you so very much for sharing Noah with us. It has been such an honor to have been able to get to know Noah through his beautiful pictures and stories. He has left an indelible mark on my heart and I will forevermore keep you all in my thoughts and prayers. While I will truly miss your writing, I fully support your need to pause and spend this valuable time with your family, just know you truly are not alone! Everyday I spend in this world, I will work in honor of Noah and his friends to make it a more loving and safe one for our children!

    All my love,
    Erin Gill

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  11. Thank you for so much for sharing Noah and your beautiful family, you are amazing and beautiful person that has tremendous strength. Please tell Veronique that we pray and send blessing to her and the rest of Noah's Family. Is it true that you can love someone you never met? YES....in a big way we send love and peace. I pray and will try to help in the Gun Laws Legislation also Mental Health. I see their is a big gap in how the medical profession monitor the patients that have mental illnesses or problems with Mental Disabilities. It will be a hard mountain to climb,,due to people trying to fight it. But in Noahs name we will fight for you. From the first day I looked on this page. I consider you family because this affects all of us. I may not post alot but we still love and wish you all the best in your fight for Noah. I know he is probably looking down on you right now, saying thats my mom-mom...she will have my back forever. I will always hold you and you family close to my heart. Be Blessed and I will pray for comfort for you and Noahs family.

    I will Love Noah and your family forever.


    Marilyn

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  12. When you are hugging your family, can you add an extra squeeze for me? Take care, and I agree with Teresa. Bake! and if you can try to smile and laugh at a thought of all of your grandchildren at least once a day.

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  13. Bien entendu. I have been moved to action...and continually to tears.
    Thank you for sharing... May you and your family thrive.
    Marla (St Louis)

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  14. Thank you for sharing Noah with the world. His story will not be forgotten.

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  15. Thank you MC for making sure Noah wasn't just another statistic. Sharing his story, your story has helped galvanize people to fight for change. It's easy to ignore statistics. It's not easy to ignore the Noah you have shared with us. Please leave this page up so we can visit it from time to time and link to it in our journeys to reduce gun violence.

    Wishing you and your family more peaceful days ahead. God bless. And again, thank you.

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  16. MC, Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful family with us. Noah will never be forgotten. I know we have never met but I feel as if we are family. Please take the time for yourself and your family. You have inspired so many of us. I have and will do what is needed to try to change the laws. I pray every night for all the victims but especially for your family. There was something about Noah's picture when I saw him for the first time that made me want to know more about him. It has been an honor getting to know him through you. Noah has changed the world. He has forever changed me. I stand with you and your family. Sending you lots of love and hoping that someday your and your family finds peace.

    Much love,
    Mary Dafis

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  17. Thank you so much for sharing all of this posts with us.
    Take care of yourself and your family.
    What a wonderful photo of Noah.
    Do not worry, he will never be forgotten.

    Hugs and kisses from Europe.

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  18. MC, thank you so much for sharing Noah with us and allowing us to get to know him. From the moment I first saw his sweet little face, I fell in love with the little man who reminds me so much of my own little man. I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you and your family feels, and I hope that sharing him with us has helped ease that pain, even if it is only a little bit. Through Noah, I've become a better parent, and I thank you for that as well. This couldn't have been easy for you, sharing something so private as grief with people you've never even met. Your posts, your stories and pictures of Noah have done so much for those who grieve with you.

    I feel as if I've come to know him beyond a picture on a television screen. I will never forget him, will never forget what happened, and I will forever keep you and your family in my thoughts. I wish peace and love to all of you.

    Many hugs,

    Kim

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  19. This picture took my breath away. Thank you for sharing. I know we have never met but I will miss you. I will never forget you. Noah has captured a piece of my heart and I will never be the same again. You and Veronique's strength and grace have moved me beyond words. God bless you and your beautiful family.

    All my love,
    Heidi McGlothlin
    Albion, Indiana

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  20. It seems almost naive to say that I understand how you feel, when I am certain no one can quite grasp it.

    I wish you a smooth transition back home, and will be always thinking of Noah and all of you.

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  21. MC - Thank you for sharing Noah and your family with us the past month and for all your beautiful posts. I will miss reading them, but will find my own way to make changes so that these beautiful souls did not die in vain. God be with you and your family.
    Wishing peace and love,
    Lori Poole
    Chantilly, Virginia

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  22. Thank you for allowing us to catch a glimpse of what Noah was like. My thoughts and prayers will always be with Noah, his twin, his other siblings, his mother and all of his extended family. May GOD give you the strength and peace to continue forward. So many people have said there was something about Noah's picture that touched them, and that is so true. He truly touched so many lives!

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  23. Thanks MC for sharing Noah with us. Take some rest but now but don't forget us forever, we are waiting for you.

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  24. Oh my goodness, you saved one of the best pictures for last! I actually took a quick breath in when I saw it because Noah is just SO cute with his smile and how he's sitting there and the bright yellow flowers bring such an other worldly feel to the setting. BEAUTIFUL!!! Thank you so much for taking your time to share with us. I will be thinking of you and the family as you move on from here to grieve, heal, and fight.
    Pleasanton,CA

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  25. Thank you. Through all of your grief, you have given me a most precious gift that I will cherish forever. I will close and say goodbye with words from Veronique, "we have all been elevated in our humanity by knowing you".
    Forever gone, but NEVER forgotten.
    We love you

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  26. Thankyou and god bless. Graham and family (Australia)

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  27. Thank you for sharing so much of Noah with all of us. Not a day goes by that I don't think of him and send prayers of strength to your family. While there are no words to express my sorrow for what has happened please know that we are behind you, a fortress of parents, children, and Americans who will fight for change. Sending love and blessings from Connecticut,

    J. Hills

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  28. That picture is so heartbreakingly beautiful. I am once again moved to tears when I see Noah in these pictures. You have shared so much with us and now it is time for you to care for yourself and your family. I wish you, Veronique and the rest of the family peace, solace and some sort of comfort as you all deal with your grief. I do not want to be intrusive, but once in a great while could you just let us know how everyone is doing? I will have you in my thoughts and Noah is always in my heart.

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  29. I love the pic you posted so much. He is so happy, but has a look of mischievousness at the same time. Thank you for taking the time to share your beloved Noah with so many of us. I still shed tears when I see his beautiful face and think of the other children who were taken so senselessly from this world. I understand you must go now and take care of yourself and your family. I pray that your writings about Noah have healed your heart in some small ways. He was a beautiful little soul and I know, with time, your thoughts will bring more smiles than tears. I will continue to push for change on my end and do whatever I can to help decrease those frightening statistics. Please know how much I care about your Noah and all those who died on 12/14. I pray for peace for all the families every night and that every one of you will regain your stength, your hope and your smiles again with due time. Bigs virtual hugs and encouraging words are always here for you.

    Peace and love from a fellow nurse in Raleigh, NC

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  30. I thank you sooo much for sharing Noah. He is a beautiful child. MC you write so beautifully , I will miss reading about Noah. I looked for your posts every single day. I hope someday you will share again. I will never forget Noah. You inspire me to be a better person. Thank You so very much.

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  31. God bless You and your family,safe travels home and we will never forget Noah and the other souls who were taken that day. Love will win, It has to. xoxo From Shelton Ct

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  32. Such innocence and beauty and love in that face. Thank you for opening up as you have and for sharing with so many. Something in Noah's eyes just speaks to my mothering heart in such a deep way. I think of him every day, often. Bless your grandmothering heart as you and the rest of his family take care of one another and help our leaders be more imaginative in helping to make our country safer for all.

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  33. I've said this before, but thank you, thank you, thank you for sharing with us and for allowing us to grieve with you. First, however, you need to take care of your family and yourself in dealing with such incredible loss. While you are away, I will continue to think of Noah, of you and your family, and of all the families affected by gun violence in this country. I pray that you will continue to find peace and comfort as time goes on. We will always be here for you, whenever you are ready, and in whatever capacity you need us.

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  34. I just now came across your blog. I hold a dear place in my heart for Noah. He was such a BEAUTIFUL little boy and I can see in all of the pictures he had so much personality. Makes me wish I knew him personally. I will never forget that little angel. I really enjoy seeing all these pictures you post of him and learning more about him. Thank you! And I pray that you and your family find strength and some sort of peace through this grieving process. I know it probably sounds strange coming from a complete stranger but I think about little Noah everyday...and will never ever forget him. He kind of reminds me of my 3 year old son...with the same cowlick. =) Enjoy your precious family!

    With love,
    Jen =)

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  35. Dear Pozners,
    I have been reading all of your blogs and your words are beautiful. I am fifteen years old. I have been touched especially by Noah over the past few weeks. I don't know why but as soon as I saw his big blue eyes and innocent smile I had a strange connection to him. He has left footprints all over my heart. I will never stop saying his name and I will make sure to keep him alive as long as I live. He deserves to live in the hearts of all of us forever. He is such a special boy to me, even though I never got to meet him. I am so greatly looking forward to the day that I will. Your family has been quite an inspiration to me because you have done something to change these issues that our country has. Your story has touched my heart in such a bittersweet way. I want you to know in the months and years to come, I will be thinking and praying for your family as you continue your lives after such a traumatic event. I pray that you know God is taking great care of Noah and he will continue to grow and thrive in heaven as a handsome young man and he is extremely happy. I know he isn't suffering or sad but completely filled with joy. He is watching over you and when you feel all alone, know that he is there. I wrote a letter to your daughter and the whole family. It would mean the absolute world to me to know that you received it and I hope it helps you in some way. No one has ever touched my heart like Noah has and I will keep him alive in every way possible that I can. Thank you for showing great strength and your beautiful words over the past few weeks. It really helped me, through tears, to find a sense of peace. Noah will always hold a very big place in my heart. His big personality, beautiful face, and silly attitude towards life, he has become a precious child to me and I know that he is now also a precious angel to Jesus. God bless, and I will continue to pray for this beautiful family. Mass love from Ohio.
    Carolyn Jones

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  36. Dear MC,

    Thank you so much for all the stories and pictures of your handsome grandson Noah! I will miss your posts tremendously as they helped me with all my feelings after the tragedy and for the rest of 5 weeks after. The moment I saw Noah's name on the list of people who did not make it, I knew that he was a special boy! When I heard his MOM's touchy speech at the funeral I could not stop crying and thinking about her, Noah and the rest of the family. I admire Veronique’s strengths and intelligence while grieving for her youngest child! Your daughter is the way she is because she has a wonderful mother herself! You did let us total strangers to grieve with you by knowing Noah and his family a little better. Thank you so much! As I told you before my youngest son Joshua shares the same birthday and I know that in my house Noah will be always remembered! I wish you, Veronique, and Noah's siblings much comfort and many many happy signs from Noah! Thank you for bringing school safety in your proposals! Already missing your posts:) and stories! With love and admiration, Irina Z. NYC

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  37. Fedra Tucci (Italia)January 19, 2013 at 2:42 PM

    Grazie a lei Signora MC abbiamo conosciuto meglio questo bambino meraviglioso. La vita continua ma Le assicuro che terrò Noah sempre nel cuore . Un abbraccio a Sua figlia da parte mia

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  38. This is the sweetest picture ever! Thank you so much for sharing your beautiful grandson. I wish you and your family the best and I will never forget this beautiful boy and his friends and family. Take care. Love and prayers.

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  39. God bless you and your family. I am completely heartbroken over this tragedy. I will keep Noah, your family and all of the families involved in this senseless act of violence in my heart and in my prayers until the day I die. Love to you all!

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  40. What a beautiful boy, I love the big smile with the twinkle in his eye and the bright color yellow with the flowers. He looks so happy!!!! Thank u so much for sharing pictures and memories of Noah. As many people have said, Noah has a special place in my heart, I knew it the moment I saw his sweet face!!! I will miss Ur pics and memories of Noah, but yes MC please take care of urself and family and allow urself some time to grieve..I will keep Noah in my heart forever as well as the other 25 angel, I will continue to pray for all the families everyday and wish u comfort and healing. I again thank you so much for sharing sweet Noah, I feel so blessed to have gotten to hear about him. I feel as I love him as my own and its hard to believe a person can feel that way for someone they have never met. As I feel the same about Ur whole family, I love each and everyone of u and wish u well during Ur journey of healing. There's not a day I don't think of Noah and his family. I have faith that he's looking down and smiling down from heaven to u all and giving u all signs that he is here with u!! Please hug eachother once from me!! U are all in my prayers!! Love and hugs Lindsay

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  41. Your little man has captured my heart! I have come to your blog every day since your first post. Something about this beautiful little boy has deeply touched me and I dissolve into tears upon reading every post and seeing every new picture. Thank you for sharing him with us, he reminds me so much of my 7 year old little boy-who would much rather play his Wii or read his Ninjago books than ever do homework also!;) I am in awe of your daughter who is so articulate in every statement she makes; knowing how much she is grieving her beautiful little man. Please take care of yourself and your family and know that I, as well as others, will continue to think of Noah daily for years to come. Angie
    Shreveport, Louisiana

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  42. Good luck to you. Your blog speaks to my heart....I say this as a mother of a son just a few years older than Noah, as a passionate bread baker myself. My best wishes to your family, and I admire you all for speaking up so courageously about the need for gun control. Ruth, NY

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  43. Thank you so much for sharing all your love for your beautiful Noah with us!!! I will continue to pray for your family and keep you all in my thoughts. I pray that this world becomes a better and safer place for our children. I will hold Noah, his family, classmates and teachers very close to my heart...now and always. Much love to all of you.

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  44. I have been thinking of you very often, MC. I know I will continue to do so. May some semblance of sanity re gun laws and control come out of this.

    Ross

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  45. MC, thanks for sharing so many wonderful things about little Noah's far too short life. This picture is too adorable, although it is incredibly painful to know that his beautiful face left this earth far too early and in a way too horrific to comprehend. He will remain in my thoughts for quite a long time. I agree; those stats are utterly shocking and we really need to do something about it. Peace and love to you and your family. May God bless and comfort you.

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  46. Did you see this comic MC?

    www.washingtonpost.com/blogs/comic-riffs/post/cartoon-of-the-week-pearls-before-swines-newtown-constellation/2013/01/19/23d904d0-624c-11e2-b05a-605528f6b712_blog.html

    It seems to be a good way to remember Noah and the other Newtown kids.

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  47. Blessings and peace to you and your family - take care

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  48. MC,

    God Bless you and your family, dear lady. Ever since I saw the first photo of your dear grandson, it did sparked something in me. I do not know how it is possible to feel like this for someone you have never met; It almost feels as if he is a part of all of our famlies. Nobody has ever touched my heart like your grandson has. He was truly special. He looks so much like my young son and just as much of a stinker. :) This is, by far, the best picture that I have seen of Noah. MC - I cry every day since December 14, 2012. I pray multiple time every day for your family and your dear Grandson, Noah (as well as the souls and families of the other 25). I will keep Noah's spirit alive in the only way I know how - thinking about him and praying for him. I see his face in my mind so many times through the day. Please take care of yourself and your amazing daughter's family. Her eulogy still makes me cry. Thank you so much for sharing your stories and pictures. This has awoken something inside me like nothing ever has. I have written both of my senators and my congressman. I am tossing around a plan to do more. I want to do some sort of run to raise money for the families or the town for a memorial....something like that. We need to raise awareness.

    Peace and love.

    Eric
    Burke VA

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  49. I just wanted to mention that I saw a video on youtube dedicated to Noah Pozner. The song was "Hello Goodbye Noah"....I will see you on the other side. It is a beautiful song and with the photos of Noah in the background, it is really quite touching. I was not sure that you knew of the song (which was recorded in 2010). Best to your family and R.I.P. sweet baby boy, Noah.

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  50. Totally understand MC. Love to you and your family. Beautiful picture of Noah, I love this and all the pictures you have shared and thank you for sharing them all. Heartbreaking and overwhelmingly sad, I would never get over such a loss and am sure you won't either to have had him robbed from your lives as he was and much as his life was robbed when it should have been the perpertrator that had all this done to him not these sweet innocent children, I wish I could turn it around as that selfish man was no loss to this world but your sweet Noah certainly is, but like you said, if more is done at least he and the others would not have died in vain. I will message you from time to time and am sure many will so I don't expect a reply anytime soon if ever. You need to grieve and your family all need one another during this difficult time. I will miss your posts here. Bless you all and take good care of yourselves xx

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  51. Thank you for sharing Noah with us. Noah captured my heart fron the moment I saw his handsome face and sweet smile. I fell in love him and will continue to love hime and keep him in my heart. I cant imagine what you and your family are going through, you are always in prayers. May God give you strength. Dear Noah, sweet boy, may you rest in peace. You will forever be in my heart, I will never forget you.

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  52. Dear MC & all Noah's family, you will be in my thoughts daily. Just like Noah. Time will pass; I hope that it helps to make your grief easier to bear. I know that Noah will continue to bloom in Heaven.
    Much love from Dubai
    J.

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    1. What happened to Noah has made me strive even more to raise good men. To work towards a community where gun violence is abhorred and not glorified. And to always remember the bright, active little boy I never met. He is really a ray of light, his energy still felt and when I said above that time will pass, I meant that I hope somehow the pain & loss ; the "new normal" becomes easier to live with because I know it will never go away completely.
      J xx

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  53. MC,
    I came to 'know' you by reading about what you have written here about bread. LIttle did I know your bread 'journals' would be interrupted by something as tragic as the loss of your precious grandson.

    I have read many food bloggers over the years but your blog is the only one I really have gotten hooked on because of what, for me, oozes off of computer screen when I visit Farine. Your magic with words, your skill with a camera and your passion for your subject matter is as intelligent as it is captivating. You have a way of expressing yourself that doesn't take attention away from your subject and placing it onto yourself. To me you are far more than a writer/author - you are what i can only label as a channel through which words flow unencumbered to deliver a unique look at some new discovery of yours. I have always admired you gift with words and your willingness to share.

    I totally understand your need to carry on away from here. I have been impressed by your ability to share so openly when I know your life has been shattered and that you are totally and absolutely heart broken. What you have written has impacted many of us in ways that we won't forget. You have touched our hearts by sharing your most personal memories and you have introduced us to a most remarkable little boy whose life was way too short. i can't help but think that what you have written will help get new laws enacted in regard to gun control and that we can make strides in our mental health care systems.

    I do not have the skills you have as a writer to express what is in my heart so I will end here. Take Good Care of Yourself sweet, sweet lady. The road ahead won't be easy and will challenge you in ways you can't imagine. Just keep moving… ….

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    1. I have to say that whoever you are, you summarized exactly how I view Farine, but never had the eloquence to say. I think you do have great skills as a writer, at least a lot more than me, and I am glad you were able to put all this in words for Farine.


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  54. Dear MC,

    Completely understand. I just wanted to thank you again for sharing your wonderful memories of your beautiful grandson with all of us. I am so sorry for the pain you and your family are going through. I can promise you that I will never forget Noah. I'm sorry to say that before the shooting at Sandy Hook I was one of the people who was horrified every time I heard of yet another mass shooting, but did not take any action I my own. I have realized in the past 5 weeks that if we ever want to see an end to these kinds of tragedies we all have to get involved and let our voices be heard.

    On another note, one of the previous commenters mentioned the song "Hello Goodbye Noah" in their post. I was curious so I looked up the lyrics, which are beautiful and eerily apropos. Here is a link to the lyrics if you are interested. http://www.metrolyrics.com/hello-goodbye-lyrics-michael-w-smith.html

    Much love to you and your family from L.A.

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  55. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts, pictures and stories. I will never ever forget about Noah and what a wonderful boy he was. He has a very special place in my heart.
    Take good care of yourself and your family. Much love from Germany.

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  56. I keep coming back to this blog, in an effort to try to know who Noah was. Through your memories and stories, I get a glimpse of the adorable and mischievous child he was. In one of your posts you quoted Arielle as saying she could not remember how he talked. She us only 6, and time will dim her memories of her twin. This blog may comfort her and help her remember who her brother was. Please don't stop putting your memories down.

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  57. You tube the song, Noah Hello Goodbye, I just viewed the video and it is powerful and beautiful.

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  58. Noah has and will continue to change me as a mother and a citizen. I have taken up this fight for a better world in Noah's name. I find this gives me comfort during difficult times...Be Still and Know that I am God. Psalm 46:10. I will miss the stories and pictures of Noah but I understand. Love to you and your family from Rochester, NY.

    Leslie

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  59. Noah's beautiful face is seared onto my heart. I am so grateful to have gotten to know him through your family's generosity in sharing his life and spirit. I wish you moments of peace and comfort that may multiply over time. I hope for the same for the rest of your family and for the families of the other victims. And I look forward to a better world that is the direct result of the impact Noah has had and will continue to have. He has made a difference in immeasurable ways. Bless you, Lana (Emily Moon)

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  61. Your blog has been a great tribute to your beautiful Noah. You have broken my heart over and over with your stories of this sweet little boy, I felt almost like I've gotten to know him and mourn him with you. That said, I'm sorry to see you go, but I completely understand that you and the family need to take this time to mourn and heal. I know that you'll never "get over" the loss of sweet Noah, but I send good wishes, hugs, and prayers from my family to yours that you may find peace, in due time! No matter what, to quote one of my favorite songs, "hope lives on, and love remains".

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  62. Noah gave a bouquet of flowers God gave him Heaven. I know you have a road of unfathomable grief to travel and often alone. Thank you for sharing Noah with me I will never forget Noah, your beautiful words and pictures of his angelic face are etched in my heart, every little child I see through my tears is him. I understand your leaving us for awhile, I hope you find your way back with a little peace in your heart. I know the precious memories you have of Noah will always give you comfort even through tears.

    God's Blessings to you and your Family. Ann, Saratoga, CA

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  63. MC, you can stand proud for all you have done to introduce your little Noah to the world. You have given us a glimpse of this sweet boy in life, I will never forget 12/14/12 and the agony that followed. Somehow I feel your work is not done, Noah will inspire you in time. I loved all your posts, pictures and memories, Please come back soon. A forever follower. RIP little beautiful angel.

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  64. Thank you for sharing your grief, family and Noah with us. I can not imagine what you are going through and the only thing I can think of saying is "I am sorry". From the moment I read his name on that list of names, I knew he was going to be special to me; I also have a Noah. From the moment I saw his eyes I knew he would never leave my heart. Noah is a light that we should all follow and it ha been an honor to learn more about him. He, his friends and teachers will never be forgotten. My letters to my state reprensentatives have already been sent.
    May God bless you and bring you peace and comfort. You and your family are forever in my heart and prayers.

    Sannie Rocheteau
    South Yarmouth, MA

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  65. Dear MC, awhile back a 5th grader posted on here. That was me. I did my first of 27 acts today, the first in memory of Noah Pozner. I spent my money on ice cream for my little sister and i surprised her with it. She was happy. I hope to do more acts of kindness soon.

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    1. I am so proud of you for doing this. Can you please let me know if you are a boy or a girl? And what your first name is?

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  66. I've been wanting to share this..I live in Beirut, Lebanon after residing in the US for 21 years..the day of the shooting I went to the mall with my friend and bought a coat and then heard of this terrible tragedy...and Noah's picture really hit home reminded me of my nephew back home in the States...resemblance..I couldn't get his face out of my mind..and at night I was removing the tag off my new coat and it said in big bold black letters NOAH...he's an angel up above watching u and ur family..you and your family are in my prayers..May God give you the strength to move on..& may his precious soul rest in peace...and may his memory be eternal...

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  67. Dear MC,

    I have been touched beyond words by Noah--his pictures and your stories. I think of him, his classmates, teachers and you and your family contantly and pray for all of you daily. I had read your post "Signs" about the bluejay in the window. The other day as I was walking through my yard thinking of Noah. There in my path was a perfect bluejay feather on the ground where it hadn't been shortly before. I never see a bluejay this time of year and yet there had to be one nearby to drop it's feather in front of me as a sign. I will keep it forever and keep Noah's memory alive forever as well. God bless you and your family.

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  68. Love u little Noah!! ... Rest in peace... God bless ur family...

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  69. Beautiful Noah!!! Every night my son ask me to light a candle for little Noah and his friends and all that were lost that tragic day. We say a prayer and wish you and your family healing and comfort. Hugs and love always. Lindsay

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  70. Little Noah has a special place in my heart. Although I never had the chance to meet him, his adorable photos and funny things he's said make me love him. I'm a mother to a 1.5 yr. old Noah, who seems to have a little personality much like your Noah, and they also have similar apperance. Please know that the world has you and the other families in our prayers. My grandma Miriam (who I absolutely adored) went to heaven last year and I know she will watch over Noah for you. Wishing you peace and healing.
    Love,
    Kati
    Massachusetts

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  71. Thank you for sharing.....my heart hurts for you and your family. Love and light.....

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  72. There isn't a day when i don't think about Noah and all the other people that lost their lives on that terrible day. My heart holds a special place for Noah. I will never forget him. Thankyou so much for sharing him with us. The pictures tell what a beautiful boy he was. <3

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  73. Dear MC,
    I miss your Noah stories. I tried to follow all info concerning your family and your precious Grandson. Noah has a place in our hearts thanks to you. However I think that Noah had a great power to be famous and be loved all over because of his deeds, personality... and his love to Tacos.
    I pray for him every day, look at this beautiful photo with flowers... And I cry over Veronique, I cry over You. I cry over Noah. Dream of him, speak about him, shout loud about the gun control. There are the countries where people live without guns at home. This does not solve all problems, but I think - that's better way.
    I hope you will find a piece. Way to live without Noah near by. You will always try to hear Noah's voice among the others, you will always wait him when other children running to embrace you...
    There is more children in your familly that requires love & attention, and deserve their childchood. This is your most precious treasure now. To love them as much as you can, show them how to make up right choices. And help them to go thru this grief, despair and loss of their beloved Brother.
    Please make a note on your blog from time to time, that we know all is fine fith you, Noah's sibillings, Veronique your other family.
    All my prayers with you & Noah. God bless you.
    Alex

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  74. May God Bless you and your Family. I pray that you will remember his voice and his laugh. I know one day his sisters will cherish the words you have written, giving them memories they may have lost.

    We all thank you for showing us the importance of each second with our children. I know many of us parents that considered ourselves "good parents" are now intentionally BETTER parents.

    I do not say lightly that you and your family will remain in my daily thoughts and prayers. I know you are surrounded by love, but through Noah, you also have an additional "family" that extends love, support and prayers.

    Sherri Tan

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  75. Dear MC,

    We're so sorry for your loss. My husband and I have been so affected by what happened, because we have little children, too. When I see your daughter's family, I see my family -- we have two elder teens and another group of "little kids" separated by a few years. When I see Noah, I see my son -- he has the same soft, fair skin, the same coloring, the same boy nature. Noah is Every Boy and I hold what happened to him in my heart because it could have been my children, too.

    I want you to know, here at home, we ended being so tolerable of whatever it is we *know* contributes to such reckless chaos and disrespect to others -- especially to the little ones -- in our society. As a family, we quit the video games we let our eldest kids play, and we've ended what could be senseless, hurtful banter toward the younger children -- like, "he's such a pain! he doesn't listen, that's why I'm mad at her!" etc. Little ones deserve respect. We're a family of love, have always been, but we're working to make cheap shots and careless words extinct. It can be better here, and when it's better here, it'll be better out there...

    I will always remember Noah. In my lifetime, his passing will not have been in vain. Not with this family. I am Mom, I will make always make sure. When my children grow up, I will tell them about him and how his life effected that turning point in cementing how I want to raise my own children. He is my hero.

    Thank you and God bless you and all your sweet ones.

    Sincerely,
    Veronica E.

    PS We will continue to carry the message for you. There are no politics in love.

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  76. Dearest MC, just thinking of you, dear sweet lady, and the rest of your family today. For all of you along with Noah will be embedded in my heart forever.

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  77. We are off to Washington this afternoon to March for your little Noah.

    Love,

    Leslie Rochester, NY

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  78. So proud! Today my 17 year old daughter came home and told me she gave a speach to her senior class about gun control. I've barely discussed this with her, apparently she saw how it affected me. So, not only parents can make a difference.... our kids can too.

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  79. We all grieve with you and your family MC. Noah will always be in our thoughts and hearts, as well as the other children. As I said before, he is a huge loss to this world your beautiful Noah. I wanted to share this one of Noah I came across on another facebook page of one of the other children, he's as adorable as he is in all his pictures. We all love Noah xx:

    http://sphotos-h.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash3/6951_10151227070327605_2080957949_n.jpg

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  80. My most sincerest and deepest condolences to you and your family. As many have said in almost every response to your posts, I too feel so connected to your Noah. I am nurse in Labor & Delivery in Southern California. I work nightshift and was coming off of a very busy night when I sat down to eat my breakfast I was stopped by the horrific news on that December 14th. It crushed me, absolutely crushed me. As the days went on and pictures of the sweet little faces were shown on the news...your Noah just captured my heart and I have mourned his passing since then. I think that your Noah looks so much like my 3 year old Lucah. As a parent I just instantly felt such tremendous sadness that his, and the other children of Sandy Hook's lives were taken so abruptly and heinously. There has not been a day that has gone by since that Noah has not wandered into my heart and mind. I stumbled upon your blog and through you I have been able to sort of know him and I want to thank you for sharing your heart and many times your soul. I am sure that it has been both therapeutic and difficult for your to write so candidly about his passing and the events that have occured since in your family. Please know that I pray every day and will continue to for you and your family to have peace. I am doing everything that I can to write senators, congressman and women, the president, and anyone else to honor Noah and the others that were lost that day. Bless you and your family and please give your daughter and her children a heart felt hug from me.

    Jessica De Los Santos
    California

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  81. MC,

    I can fully understand that you need a break. Grief is something that takes control of the whole being and drains every bit of bodily and emotional energy. You have been absolutely amazing to be able to share your pain and sorrow with strangers at this very difficult time. You have shown so much grace and strength and I believe we can all learn some valuable lessons from you that extend beyond the human spirit.

    I thank you for sharing your family stories, memories and the beautiful photos of Noah. The photo of him at the book fair is etched into my mind - I was so drawn to Noah when his photo appeared in a local Australian newspaper, The Age (December 17th 2012). It was from that point that I came across your blog and I am so glad that I found you.

    You are a very special person and I am inspired by you. Noah and his family will always be in my heart. I could never forget the horror that was forced upon these innocent children and their teachers. I continue to hope that collective action of communities and accountable and conscionable governments will work to bring an end to this insanity. It is going to be a tough one as violence is ingrained into our society. However, it is time to take a stand against violence and bring about a 'cultural change'. We can never give up or lose hope for a better future. Lastly, it must be remembered that families and children should be central to all societies as the children are our future.

    I will email you from time to time just to let you know that I am thinking of you.

    Sending my love and prayers for strength and comfort,

    Michele T

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  82. I miss Noah posts so much.
    I pray for all of you, especially for Noah.

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  83. MC Thinking about you. I know you are still grieving and maybe not coming here often but I want you to know that we have not forgotten about you or you daughter and family. God Bless You and continue to give you strength.

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  84. Dear MC,
    I’m writing to you from Switzerland, I’m Czech but live here since 12 years
    I have heard about the Dec., 14th I cannot stop thinking about this tragedy and I check regularly on the news. As some other people said, Noah and your family are so much in my heart, as if you were a part of mine family. I couldn’t find more appropriate words than that you have already written. There is so much compassion and love I feel for you and your family. I know millions of other people also do.
    I want to share a little story about my last trip to Paris short after Xmas. One afternoon we were walking in Paris and our legs carried us to the “Père-Lachaise” cemetery, place that I have visited couple of years ago. We were walking purposeless by passing many tombs and crypts as many tourist and visitors.
    There was one white and particularly beautiful Crypt, which was very well maintained, it looked like it was built recently. Many people stopped by. I don’t remember the exact dates, but the dates were from beginning of 20th century. There was a very beautiful “letter” displayed. It was a letter from a boy about 14 years old resting in the crypt. This letter was written by the hand of his mourning mum, butaddressing words of comfort from a son to his dear and loving mother. He was saying, you need to feel happy and strong. I want to see you smiling and not lost in sorrow. Than it was explained, that when the mother wrote the letter, it was like her hand was guided by an invisible force, the hand was flying over the paper without any effort, in some way she was not thinking about the words, when she wrote the page, but had to read them after.
    This short moment comforts me in the idea, that Noah choose this way to continue to LIVE and carry on the message he has to address to us, to US nation and to the entire world. STOP WITH GUNS! BAN THEM! These are not toys and shouldn’t be a part of the staff people have home.
    I know this point of view is not shared among the population in US, but Americans should know, that GUNS are made to shoot and kill. Guns are made for WAR and TERROR. Yes, we must fight to protect our lives, lives of our children, our freedom, but not with guns or violence. The main way to stop violence is to stop producing and holding guns and munition, to stop storing, collecting and playing with them like toys.

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    How could possibly a teenager or mentally sick person access a gun, if there aren’t any? (I mean outside the police, army or special security staff) Isn’t the Newtown shooting a last warning message, that somehow we are loosing our humanity? Were the 20 children’s and 6 teacher’s lives taken away by mistake or simple accident? Or is that a sign, that something must really change in our society?! The family, children and health are no more core values of this modern society. It became the place of any kind of disregard, selfishness, manipulation, terror , killing and now mass killing of children! These children didn’t die in vain, they make us all open our eyes and hearts.
    There are people, who want to change. President Obama is one of them. But he needs help from many of his citizens, from the parents of the children, from all ordinary Americans who care about their country and their children.
    If Noah could tell something right now, his worlds would certainly say : GUNS ARE NOT FUN, WE (CHILDREN) WANT TO PLAY and LIVE IN PEACEFUL PLACE! We left your world filled with violence and selfishness to make you open your eyes and hearts. The place we are now is much more beautiful then your world blinded with fear.
    MD, thank you so much for what you have shared with us (complete strangers) about Noah and your family. I admire Veronique and wish her strength and relief. May Noah stay in your dreams with all the beauty and charm, lightening your days and warming and filling your hearts with love as he always did... And you MD, please keep baking the brads for Noah, that he loves so much! I’m sure your grandson is proud of you and all your family and will stay always connected and present. Though you cannot touch him physically, he is always around. He is aside there, where his strength, energy and love is needed at most.
    PS: sorry for the mistakes in English, but even French is not my mother tongue and these words came on their own when I started thinking about your dear Noah.
    My warmest regards
    Monika L.H.

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    1. God bless you Monika and MC,

      I am writing from Spain and I am reading this blog everytime I see a new post. I'm a 24 yo male and since this tragedy happened can't take my frustration and my mind from those children. Noah story made me cry the most, knowing that he was the youngest, he was the one suffering most by being 11 times shot and reading the words his mother, Veronica, gave to media, about his little angel in casket. Seeing the pictures, I'm asking: "Why don't we have a time machine to turn back in past. God, I will give my life for saving those children". Sadly, I'm powerless. Life sucks sometimes.
      I never had a gun in my house and as I know, there are no records for guns in the last 150 years, other than my grandpa having an old gun for hunting, safely locked, which has been sold after my grandpa died. Neither my mother, her sister or any grandson touched it in their life. One time I had the occasion to touch a gun (a policeman handgun) and I was shaking like a leaf. What's happening with the new generation ? Why people leave and gift guns to their 12-13 yo children. I hate guns. I hate people saying that all this was a conspiracy just to take their guns. I'm sick of people caring more of his guns than their children and future.

      God bless Noah's family. God bless Noah. Please God, keep those angels close, in arms and on knees. Make them happy and comfort them and their families. Amin.

      With love,
      L.D.

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  86. Your family is forever in my prayers.
    Little Noah reminds me so much of my own son.
    I grieve for him and all the Sandy Hook victims.

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  87. MC-I am not sure if you go this page anymore. It must make everything even more painful and not sure it helps in any type of progress in your "recovery" back to some type of life before "the day". But if you do, please must realize how many, many of us share in your grief. The very minute I saw Noah's face, I KNEW him, and loved him. None of us can take back or erase any of this pain for you, and your whole family, no matter our wish to, but just know deep inside how much we care and all of us will continue to fight for what is right and somehow end this violence that has taken over our society. I am a 63 yrs. old (RN also and mother to 5 daughters, and 3 small grandsons) and I never can never remember anything that has happened in my lifetime that has affected me so deeply. Of all the horrific things that have happened, this is the very worst. I will never be the same, as I am sure you will not either. I will honor Noah in every way that I can, from his birthday, taco day, and any way I can. It hurts so much to see other children out and about, and I think "he should be one of them." I am a great believer in Heaven, and every time I see someone write RIP...........I think "NO"........Noah is running around, playing and enjoying his new "life" with Jesus and his friends where there is nothing but eternal happiness. Until we meet dear Noah........and all those we hope again to reunite with, I wish you Blessings and love to you and Veronique, and your whole family. May peace somehow take over the intense pain and grief and let Noah shine in all of us.

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  88. I found your blog through the interview your daughter gave, talking about the way Noah was so cruelly taken from your lives. I want to thank you for sharing your memories with us, your thoughts, your grief & the process your family is going through. There are no words to explain the depth of my sympathies to your family & the others who lost loved ones that awful day. I cannot fathom the steps you take every day. I don't know how you take the next breath & the one after that. Your courage, strength and grace are a testament to your love of Noah & his family. Please know that as we move forward as a nation, there are millions of us who will fight for no other family to go through what you've been forced to go through. I pray your family is able to find a new normal that will let you move through this life with some peace. I pray Noah's love will continue to show itself in his mischievous way. May God hold you close.

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  89. I found your blog through the interview your daughter gave, talking about the way Noah was so cruelly taken from your lives. I want to thank you for sharing your memories with us, your thoughts, your grief & the process your family is going through. There are no words to explain the depth of my sympathies to your family & the others who lost loved ones that awful day. I cannot fathom the steps you take every day. I don't know how you take the next breath & the one after that. Your courage, strength and grace are a testament to your love of Noah & his family. Please know that as we move forward as a nation, there are millions of us who will fight for no other family to go through what you've been forced to go through. I pray your family is able to find a new normal that will let you move through this life with some peace. I pray Noah's love will continue to show itself in his mischievous way. May God hold you close.

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  90. This coming August I'm doing act of kindness here in Philippines. and want to dedicate it to all the victims of sandy hook. especially to Noah. I don't know why but every time i seeing Noah's photos, there's always tears in my eyes. He has a specially space in my heart now. always imagine myself to have a son in the future and name him Noah. ♥

    Noah and your family is always in my prayer.
    I will never forget Noah even though I never got a chance to meet him.

    --- a friend, from Philippines

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